A new something has been birthed. Perhaps it is not been fully shaped yet but this time I want to write about it here, on the blog. Of course it has not been fully shaped yet; it has just been birthed. I ask myself, why do I sometimes expect for my ideas to materialise immediately when all things in nature take time? Perhaps it has to do with the old stories, of God creating everything day by day. “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” And it all started with the Word. Was the Word the idea? And how do we know that day that once was is the same as a day in duration we know it now? In eastern philosophies a Brahma’s “day” (Brahma being the creator god) is something that lasts for more than 4 billion human years. Perhaps this is how long it took God to create Earth. And yet, I expect my vision to be unfolded in days or weeks while juggling with so many aspects of life at the same time.
Transitions are mostly subtle. Even if something happens overnight and changes the trajectory of your life, it still takes time for the transition to bring new shape. Sometimes I see and hear, sometimes I feel, other times I sense. Sometimes I consult the knowledge and wisdom of the Cosmos, sometimes I surrender to the quiet whisper of God deep within the silence of my own being. In these moments I am aware of time passing through me and of endless cycles of beginnings and endings. Endings and beginnings. Even now I feel the transition smoothly as I make first step in a new territory - new energy, new land, new being. It doesn’t really have a lot to do with the New Year. It is a mark of a sort, but I have left a lot behind me in the past 8, 10 years. A very slow yet deep time of learning and birthing.
A slight change will be showing up in the way I present my work and approach client work. A change of copy and visuals will follow offers and pricing, but only as a finished touch of the inner work that has been shaping how I think and work. Some of the things I am dedicating myself more to is, well, my creative work and artistic expression. I am currently working on a digital magazine and there will be more word about it soon. I am excited about Grimalda Sessions, a monthly women gathering event I started organising several months ago. There is a women’s retreat coming up as well, the one I had to cancel in November because I didn’t have enough women applying. New prints have been waiting to see the light of the day for some time and the idea of releasing them before Christmas just didn’t work. A new thing is that I will be sharing more writings in Croatian on this blog as well, because - why not? Expressing myself in two languages is beautiful, powerful and requires different approach and abilities which I am dedicated to practice more.
There will be more writing, more photographing, more painting and more sharing about the process. This sharing about the process is what is new, to be honest. This is the new energy I sense, the need to create more consistently, more effortlessly, more relaxing and more unapologetically. My thoughts feel a little bit unfinished and I let them be, I embrace them. Not everything needs to be finished here. Am I starting all over? Not at all. I am just picking where I left off.
This is for me, here. Not to remember, but to mark.
And for you perhaps, to remind you of whatever you need a reminder of.
